Leading the way… to nowhere

 Apathy is the sacrilege of egalitarian humanity

© Misan Harriman superbly exhibiting for a second year at HOPE 93

I) BEING (published 15 May 2026 with ongoing updates)

DISCLAIMER: Being homeless since February 2026 out of Hackney Council’s apathy, neglect and sadism attitude – under Labour mayoralship – makes this piece difficult to write for many reasons! I am purposely not putting any figures on homelessness in London as the issue covers an umbrella of (invisible) statuses that makes it impossible to count; I privilege words to emphasis on hardship and horror rather than using numbers (YET “Hackney saw the largest increase, with a 56% rise”) that overshadow the multiple reasons one becomes roofless as well as depicting the real impact it has on victims of homelessness camouflaging environmental / violence topics. Prejudice and stereotypes go rampant while gangrening the big issue! In 2016 and 2021, I voted Sadiq Khan to be Labour Mayor of London. Despite admiring Khan, I did not vote in 2024. If the Mayor of London wants to tackle homelessness at large (not solely rough sleepers who ‘pollute’ the amazing city as Larry the Cat puts it – surely a sore eye plague for tourists), he has to attack councils’ cruelty that fabricate people’s fate! Perhaps, he subtly did when promoting London Labour boroughs over mayoral elections? He toured around Hackney’s periphery: Waltham Forest; Haringey; Camden and Islington but did not celebrate Caroline Woodley... who became former Mayor of Hackney on 8 May 2026, after two and a half years of brutality! (Now suddenly interested in running for Foodbank)

 

NOTA BENE: Before describing my London trip into the void – a city I took refuge to after escaping sexual violence in French journalism... in total contrast with Sadiq Khan! - consider the condition of ageing while being Jewish under Nazism! Here is a wallpaper as taken from Wiener Holocaust Library:

Older Jews by the time they experience Nazi persecution

In my convoy [to Auschwitz] there were two dying 90 year old women… one of them died en route, nursed in vain by her daughters. Would it not have been simpler, more ‘economical’, to let them die, or perhaps kill them in their beds, instead of adding their agony to the collective agony of the transport? One is truly led to think that, in the Third Reich, the best choice… was the one that entailed the greatest amount of… suffering.  The ‘enemy’ must not only die, but must die in torment

Primo Levi, The Drowned and the Saved, 1986




A ghetto disguised as an old age home


High suicide rate among women over 60’s


Stay, Flee or Perish


Being Old = Unfit to work under Nazi criteria


Begging for help


Helping ageing women with food and clothing

Dusseldorf  London 12 January 1950 / 18 January 1950


Homeless and Alone ageing woman with health issues


Impossibility to count elderly survivors


Outliving Nazi persecution did not mean freedom

Surviving for what?




Hackney Council (human trafficking) – Labour Party – Green Party – Disability – Law system – Health (mental, physical, GPs human trafficking) – women – environment - journalists: 

Following a series of 🌹 Leading the way “⚠️ Hackney Labour will invest £550 million in estate repairs over the next 10 years to make sure homes are safe and future-ready!”, Talking Heads knocked its way down to Memory Lane… And we know what we're knowin', But we can't say what we've seen, And we're not little children, And we know what we want, And the future is certain, Give us time to work it out We're on a road to nowhere… Come on inside… Takin' that ride to nowhere… We'll take that ride Hackney has been under Labour majority control since 2002 as Green Party’s George Sheldon Grün reminds the ‘working class’ Party.

In 2006, while having a stunt in Peru, I met a late 20’s French woman who celebrated her PHD in law regarding her concern to the potential disappearing debt a French society/government owes to individuals. She also thought that racism was getting pretty disinhibited which would damage Europe and international relations. What is the position of a vulnerable individual in an over liberal society? Someone who would need to justify their poverty and pay a high price as punishment!

In 2015, Katie Hopkins wrote a malicious and racist column for The Sun where she compared desperate people fleeing their land as cockroaches “Make no mistake, these migrants are like cockroaches. They might look a bit 'Bob Geldof's Ethiopia circa 1984', but they are built to survive a nuclear bomb. They are survivors.” That sort of debauched disdain vomited towards vulnerable people – unemployed, homeless, from an ethnic minority – (also calling them cockroaches) has spread its venom to social networks shamelessly... in France... in May 2026! 

On an email dated 18 Nov 2025 at 09:42 addressed to Hackney council tax office in CC to journalists, Green and Labour Party in Hackney, I wrote “...Due to the recurrence of Mayor of Hackney Caroline Woodley and my GP trying to section me since 2022 for being pseudo psychotic and schizophrenic as well as having delusion of persecution...” I criticised the council “Misogyny is blatantly recurrent!” while putting me under constant severe pressure and intimidation since winning my court case against landlord  in September 2023 until I could no longer take it... in September 2024. Hackney Council was not reviewing my case unless... “If I’m not on medication and if I’m not seeing a psychiatrist, Hackney Council won’t view me as suffering mental health issues they have been causing!” I continued “If a woman is disobedient, they will lobotomise her in their wildest fantasies! ... Why do people have to queue in Hackney centre for Citizen Advice Bureau when CAB is not a closed building... Queuing starts before 7AM on Wednesday and Fridays, the doors open at 9am, they only accept the first 20 people! This is inhuman.” I added “Early 2025Barbican stopped inviting me to their exhibition press views… Woodley’s son is flying at Barbican” [Woodley deleted her link “It's my birthday, so I reckon I'm allowed a proud mum minute! ...


more info here: Fred Woodley as John Darling]

UPDATE (20 May 2026): Flying high featuring Jennifer Wynter



Tue, 25 Nov 2025 at 14:06 – after realising Hackney Council hired a Lambeth Director of Housing Strategy and Homelessness to replace Jennifer Wynter who caused tremendous suffering to Hackney vulnerable residents, I wrote with attachments as evidence “On 18 November 2025, I sent an email (below) ‘responding’ to my Council Tax reduction claim made on 4 November 2025 (at the bottom).

Returning home, two letters were waiting for me: an application from Council tax office to backdate my Council tax sent 1st class on 13 November - received 18 November (from Hackney to Hackney) – envelop as attached; a letter – as attached x2 - by Director of Housing Strategy and Homelessness dated 28 October 2025 / received 18 November (from Hackney to Hackney – [Dusseldorf to London in 1950 was quicker!]) letting me know my Council Tax reduction had been accepted from 20 September 2025...

In short, my Council Tax reduction I applied for on

4 November 2025 was accepted on 28 October 2025!

On 2 February 2023, Head of revenues sent a PDF via email regarding my complaint (ref 15035953) about the outrageous treatment I suffered from the Council Tax team via email – eventually informing me that I didn’t know where I lived – as well as letters that arrived up to two months late or never arrived. The Council Tax team’s behaviour towards me was not addressed; the Post Office was at fault! Nobody has ever shown any evidence of sending reminders for Council Tax I didn’t pay for an entire year... [I didn’t pay Council Tax because I lived on a boat but because they never sent a Council Tax book for 2022-2023]

I am re-attaching my Conversation with Council Tax from email correspondence: 29 July 2025 to 20 October 2025. Between mockery, dehumanising, undermining, mansplaining, DARVO, misogyny and incomplete information / no information given to specific questions, would you, N Clarke [Head of revenues], still send a similar PDF?

Would you admit that every single year, a few times a year, I am subjected to stress, distress, ongoing unnecessary anxiety? i.e: soon after winning a court case (September 2023) my landlord and flat agent set up against me, Jennifer Wynter stopped all my benefits; months before that she took £100 off my benefits which she had to replace [it took her three months to do so] because she had no reason to do so; weeks after stopping my benefits, Josie Crisp (JW’s colleague) and my ward Cllr (and lawyer) Labour Margaret Gordon sat on my sofa [December 2023] bullying me for two hours that I had to participate to incentive [with money compensation from court case] towards my landlord in order to avoid homelessness... Gordon finally filled a section 22 against my landlord with a similar document I had sent my solicitor in 2022: she got all information about my address and rent wrong adding that nobody wanted to help... she was supposed to fill section 13... [her fake error led me to rent arrears]

Following the bullying and misogyny I went through in Citizen Advice Bureau’s office between the debt advisor and a lad in Council Tax, I refused to continue talking and said I was not going to apply for backdating as I was constantly misinformed. Despite my request to leave me alone, lad still sent me a Council Tax backdate application received on 18 November. 19 November at 3°C, I arrived at 6.30am in Hackney centre for CAB at 9am: a meeting on 21 November was set up where I was told to fill the application stating I didn’t know what I was doing / I was confused... then I should get my file from GP instead.

Why do I have to go to a GP that doesn’t care about my mental and physical health; why can’t N Clarke and co take accountability for their actions / ongoing harassment, exacerbated virility (even from women who learn from their peers)?

N Clarke, do you back up Keir Starmer addressing issues like mental health, masculinity etc to his son so we live in a better world [virility has a huge cost on society]? Or would you agree with Trump calling a female journalist a piggy while telling her to shut up?

Last year, when I stopped my benefits, it was not out of a loony stunt or because I worked or I won the lottery. Jennifer Wynter had once again harassed me all Summer and decided early Autumn to ask for my bank account statements. Was it legal to do so? Absolutely! But it was absolute abuse to keep at me out of power control!

I am asking you to admit my mental health has deteriorated because your team played psychological games; I am asking you to reduce my Council Tax from last year when my benefits stopped.

Disclaimer: once I applied for Universal Credit, my mother put £2500 on my bank account. I had no idea she would do so. I have partly used the money for a back therapy: they told me I have serious issues with hip, disk and nerves trapped. Treatment is stopping next week. If I want it to continue, I will have to ask my mother to send more money. I have also found a mental health therapist which will cost me £65 per week, hopefully starting in January 2026. I have received no help for my mental and physical issues from NHS in Hackney and I hope I can ask my mother to send some extra money

I have to ask permission for my health sake!

I need an answer by the end of next week.

NO REPLY but 26 January 2026, Universal Credit took £20 off from £400 I have been receiving since October 2025... 31 January 2026, I received a letter from Director of Housing Strategy and Homelessness dated 22 January 2026 informing me that from 22 December 2025, I’ll get £380 monthly.



So a bunch of lads in Hackney Council earning (I guess) £4000 a month decide a woman’s life will be fine with £380 monthly! 4 February 2026 at 16:25:05 GMT, Caroline Woodley, Labour Mayor (Shared Mailbox) mayor@hackney.gov.uk ‘responded’ to my email dated 18 November 2025 “... It sounds as though you have a lot to deal with at the moment and I want to ensure that you get the right help. Whilst I am sorry that you’ve had such a poor experience in your dealings with the Council... they can support you in applying for a Severe Mental Impairment (SMI)...23 February 2026, I was evicted!

Would it not be time for a council to hire people who must not make a career out of residents’ poverty? Call me a naive, but would it be possible to have a maximum wage roof of £2700 monthly for the highest payslip?

Homelessness: Hackney Council’s continued abuse

from 25 February 2026 to 8 May 2026

 

Homeless Prevention Officer in Hackney Council after I spent around six hours in their office on 25 February 2026 saying I was HOH; I had no phone; I suffered mental health issues; a slipped disk and a hip problem; I failed my suicide on 23 February 2026; Out of their office at 17:17 I emailed him some attachments 

Settled Status = 2 attachments

Three bank statements = 2 attachments - I'll send Feb in the next few days

Universal Credit = 1 attachment but I did a copy-paste as I'm not sure how to get the info you need

I have the medical documents in prints and I'm waiting to receive their email, hopefully tomorrow

26 February 2026 at 13:04:31 GMT: “In regards to temporary accommodation, The Council has a duty to provide interim accommodation to those that are in "priority need." This typically includes the following applicants: - Those that are vulnerable due to physical disabilities, physical health conditions or a mental illness” He and his team of Homeless Prevention officers refused to accommodate me!

26 February 2026 at 15:13:35 GMT: “I am trying to put you forward for some private rented studio properties; however, they need a phone number to contact you on. Is there a number you could use for this?

26 February 2026 at 15:37, I sent what I believed being a full medical history! The document was eight pages long. Being in the street or ‘sleeping’ in a sofa after being evicted, my body was shattered, my brain was racing. I did go to my GP practice and asked for a full medical history because Hackney Council wanted it. They asked me to wait... I waited one hour and they gave it to me in print and sent it via email! I had no problem with the fact it was only eight pages; I didn’t even look through it! I was so exhausted!


27 February 2026, I informed him I was struggling with calculating rents etc. How can people in the street being required to perform well at all levels? I was sleep deprived. He told me off Fri 27 Feb at 16:52: “Please use the calculator I sent you in the previous email https://lha-direct.voa.gov.uk/” I couldn’t cope, I had no idea what this was all about; I’m a writer not a mathematician! The level of inhumanity is kept high at Hackney Council!

2 Mar at 11:24: “Please see attached documents; Your case is in the Relief Duty stage, this gives the council 56 Days to help you relieve your homelessness by helping you to secure settled accommodation that you find. I have also drawn up your Personal Housing Plan (PHP) which outlines the steps to be taken. Please have a read through it as there is a lot of information in there” Huge amount of information, impossible to digest. Information included contacting luxury flat agents in Mayfair; BBC links showing evidence that I should leave Hackney, even London... A phone call interview with him planned for 23 March when I should prove I am looking for flats! At 13:21, he emailed again “Ok I will make the referral to Lea Bridge Hostel. I will issue a new date for the meeting” [I would like to see evidence he contacted Lea Bridge Hotel!]

9 March 2026 at 12:25 regarding Lea Bridge Hotel, he wrote: “They advised that their referrals are currently closed but they have added me to their mailing list for when it reopens” He stopped answering emails; he never issued a meeting date!

56 days had passed since 16 April; Mayor elections took place on 7 May 2026; 8 May 2026 in the morning, it seemed obvious Green Party Zoe Garbett would be the next Mayor of Hackney, kicking Labour Caroline Woodley into the stratosphere...

8 May 2026 at 10:37 [the level of gaslight from opportunist Homeless Prevention Officer is an aberration – starting with a jolly happy go lucky mood when I have no safe roof]: “Good Morning Sybille Hope all is well I am getting in touch for an update on your current circumstances. How are things going? Where are you currently staying? Have you managed to find accommodation or had any viewings? As I previously advised, Lea Bridge Hostel did not have any vacancies when I enquired in March, however, as of yesterday they have advised that they will have availability soon. I will be making a referral and update you on the next steps I understand you had some documents you wanted to provide. Please note, I have not received anything from you yet. Can you advise what exactly these documents are and what they say? Who did you provide them to?” I had been in touch with a few actors in Hackney regarding my distress, my stress level regarding his neglect; my rage when I discovered, changing GP, that my full medical history is 49 pages long! Nobody in the Homeless Prevention team judging my case in Hackney Council found strange that a menopaused woman who spent 30 years in London had eight pages of medical history... they have no empathy, no shame, no guilt to send a woman in the street to get raped, to commit suicide, to face prostitution! At 11:54, Hackney Citizen published “Greens’ Zoë Garbett wins Hackney mayoral contest

FUN FACT: Lea Bridge Hostel: “... does not provide or supply the following: bedding, sheets, pillows, quilts, covers, crockery, pots, pans, plates, bowls etc” A hostel that supplies less than a prison is a death camp where no free hot meals is provided in the area. I have lost my belongings; I have given my kitchen stuff to Oxfam; I would have to buy new stuff with £380 I get monthly... The Hackney joke is infinite!

UPDATE28 May 2026 @ 17.44: Homeless Prevention officer writes I never provided my medical document to him; I did on Thu 26 Feb at 15:37; on Mon 2 Mar at 11:24, he sent me two attachments [PHP – xxxx + Relief duty (no priority need). Case ref_xx] where he wrote on PHP xxxx, Page 3, “I have written to your GP”; if he didn’t receive my medical record, why wouldn’t he remind me?

FUN FACT: he ‘reminded’ me on Mon 2 Mar at 11:24 to send him my bank statements and proof of receipt of Universal Credit which I did 25 February 2026 at 17:17; 1 March, I sent my February 2026 bank statement and asked him if he got all documents he requested!






 Meanwhile, losing my belongings / my life: clothes, books, DVDs...

 

My belonging got kidnapped in a storage under the pretence of helping me... I pay for it for 6 months, then Hackney sells my stuff and keeps the money:

Removal Confirmation - Thursday 5th March 2026

Me to Here to Help - Pauline J @ Hackney Council    Fri 6 Mar at 17:36

The landlord didn't comply... He said he had to be in the flat, and couldn't care less about what you said... then he asked the very polite and decent young men to pack my things in the van after putting pressure on me to ask them: I said they are professional and it's not my business to tell them what to do or how to do things. The guy in charge was pretty firm and told him they would pack the van when ready. Then he got state agents to visit the flat while we were packing...

Eventually, he stood in the flat entrance for one hour, then he stayed downstairs for the last hour.

But on arrival, he admitted coming to the flat last week, so he could read all my letters, mails, diaries, personal notes. He said he took pictures of every single things. After saying he was selling the flat, I asked him if it was because it was auctioned by my solicitors due to him not paying his court fees since September 2023 - my solicitors told me they would look at his assets and auction his propertie.s if he doesn't pay; he said my solicitor can't re-possesed the flat or auction it, he has no intention to pay the court fees, he no longer has debts, he was going to redecorate the flat and rent it out. Opening all my EDF and Water Thames bills, he said I owed him a lot of money and am in huge debt to EDF and WT. I said I only have to pay my latest bills since I closed all my accounts.

Pauline J @ Hackney Council Mon 9 Mar at 11:14 I am pleased to hear that the removal representatives were supportive and ensured you were able to remove your belongings and transport them to storage. I am sorry to hear that although you notified the landlord in advance you had some difficulties on the day. You also took the opportunity to confirm your utility bills were up to date.She is not fazed that he opened my private life! I am nobody, just a piece of trash!

THE GREEN PARTY

For the past two years, I have contacted the Green Party in Hackney to let them know of the level of abuse I suffered. I was hoping they will be aware of what Hackney Council is capable of doing and sort me out / avoid homelessness...

Zoe Garbett, Green Party 11 March 2026 to me via email: “I’m really sorry to read of the ongoing harms you are sufferingAs an Assembly Member, I could write to the responsible cabinet member at Hackney to ask them to look into your situation and to highlight the institutional harm and failings that you are reporting. Would you like me to do that?Garbett further went on at the London Assembly on 27 March 2026 via IG “After investigating the practice of social housing allocations in London boroughs, #AssemblyHousing has published the report: 'Barriers at every turn: Social housing allocation in London’.” When Garbett points correctly the harm I am suffering as a disabled woman that also affects my mental health issue– though I would call it dehumanisation in lieu of harm – her fellow Hackney Green Party CLLR writes “I didn't act because I thought you were advocating for yourself...  I'm very sorry to hear you've been made homeless... It sounds like you've had some challenging and unsatisfactory interactions with the council. We all know council services are stretched but it is no excuse for substandard service. I'm sorry we've not been able to make a difference in your case.” For two years, Green Party in Hackney received emails and articles I wrote about the agony I was suffering because of Hackney Council; I found his reply pretty insulting! Substandard is such an understatement, so downplaying the level of abuse I have been through. If they had acted in my favour, the Green Party would have had a track record on dealing with disability and homeless prevention; instead they used my deafness to gain my community votes: 4 April 2026, Green Party invites the deaf community to their event; 21 April 2026, Green Party Manifesto is available in BSL. Their manifesto to get Hackney residents vote Green on 7 May 2026 contains the word HOMELESS once; DISABILITIES (for children ONLY) twice! If I find Garbett progressive and enthusiastic (as well as being decently dressed / showing respect) I searched the reason.s why she would dismiss my case: see answer in the French delicacy of delinquency.

Despite his lack of wording correctly the extreme mental pain I went through, Green Party CLLR tried to understand the matter with Ben (Member Casework Manager, Member of the CE Directorate Equalities Board, Mayor, Cabinet & Civic Support and Member Casework, Chief Executive's Directorate) at Hackney Council. This is the information he provided to Green Party CLLR who informed me on the 0 progress:

19 March 2026: “I've spoken directly with the councillor's casework officer about these issues and asked that they try and reach out to the teams who you're in contact with, making sure that they're considering the reasonable adjustments that you might need to engage fully and get the support you're entitled to. I hope to hear back from them mid next week.

27 March 2026: “The casework team have raised this with 2 senior officers, however they're away at the moment, I've been told I should be getting an update by early next week now.

7 April 2026: “I appear to be getting given false timescales. I'll continue to chase up with the officers in question.

Interestingly enough, they only communicated via email when I was not offered any other alternative than communicating via phone because I am deaf and have no phone!

 

HEALTH

8 April 2026: Upon switching GP and getting one specialised in homelessness (it took some time to find out homeless people have their own medical territory!), I was welcomed by a young benevolent man who perceived the depth of my anxiety, nervosity, confusion. The nurse was as friendly – I got so lost by such empathy – did a battery of tests and told me I might be suffering from PTSD. I was then invited to meet an in-house man working for Citizen Advise Bureau. He landline-phoned Hackney Council, spoke to a lady called Mercy: he was not happy with the way I was treated considering my vulnerability health wise! I understood Hackney Council was going to get in touch with me... 15 April, nobody had been in touch with either of us! 22 April: I met again with CAB person; he spoke to a woman at Hackney Council: phone was hung up on him once he provided my DOB and NIN! He then spoke to Mercy who again promised to check my situation. This time, I asked him to get her full name with email. I wrote her email address down. He then looked at my medical history. This is when I found out it contained 49 pages. GP administration emailed me the full history. The content is so abhorrent and misleading that I became seriously concerned about what would be my position as a witness in a court hearing; my credibility as a victim!

These are samples but there is so much more to contest...

 

I have never told any GPs in France or UK I was profoundly deaf!

Between 1996 and 1999, my GP in Hammersmith advised to get a Freedom Pass:

I got it due to being partially deaf (I have the cookie’s bite)

as well as being terribly affected by the maladie de Ménière

I can’t fake this! Why being so mean?


It is well reported stating serious physical pains due to menopausing;

Serious mental issues due to sexual violence: however my aggressors did not

make me look like a cat, they kept posting (from 2017 to 2022)

a picture (1991) where my face is covered by a real cat

when a similar picture exists with my face!

I was assessed at Taking Changes in Shoreditch thanks to GP’s referral in 2019;

Then I never heard from them despite accepting me!


In Spring 2022 (I could no longer use shower and bath),

my solicitor advised to get notes from GP,

especially that my skin had been damaged on my neck and chest

by boiled water (in cold position); my back hurt terribly preventing me from walking

due to the way I had to wash myself. This is a series of going to the GP.

Eventually solicitor did not ask for medical history!





 

Last appointment with GP where she said

I was paranoid, psychotic, suffering from delusion of persecution... 

because I dared tell her I was stalked online and physically!

She mentioned a good friend of her was a psychiatrist and I should see him; 

I told her I had seen two in France: one got rid of me because I didn’t show any serious sign of being ‘deranged’;

The other was indeed sexist and wanted to put me on bach flowers because he didn’t think there was anything major... 

I accepted reluctantly her offer but then I declined when no evidence 

these professional lads had on understanding sexual violence!


She got a few things wrong / mis-reported my points:

I)              I went to court and due to evidence against landlord, judge gave a new hearing date!

II)             My aggressor went to a gig at the Barbican, not in Hackney/Camden! I told her

I received four anonymous phone calls one hour before he posted being at the gig!

I was not happy to see her psychiatrist friend! She made up quite a lot of things!


I have no memory telling Hackney Council which GP practice I used!

Even if I told them, why would they contact them in Spring 2022?

Do they own my body and mind?

This is so worrying that they gave me no support while going to court

against landlord and flat agent, but they controlled my life!


4 MARCH 2026 (one week into homelessness):

GP IN HACKNEY WRITES THEY HAD A PHONE CONVERSATION WITH ME

Detailing the conversation

I HAVEN’T HAD A PHONE SINCE FEBRUARY 2025!

 

From late April 2026, I filled online applications regarding my mental health, stipulating always my hearing deficiency.

Re: Your referral to Low Intensity Anxiety & Depression Talking Therapies (was IAPT) at XXX in the City, Hackney & Waltham Forest

Friday, 1 May 2026 at 10:54:15 BST XXX@xxx.org.uk> wrote:

Thank you for your referral.

Unfortunately, you are not eligible as this is a service for mild to moderate anxiety and depression whilst the information provided indicates that you need a higher intensity of support. Please find below some information that may be of assistance. The first is for referring yourself to therapy at XXX but for a different service. You will need to tick the box for 'Therapy for another reason' and not the one mentioning anxiety and depression. https://www.xxx.org.uk/xxx-referral-form-new-spec/ [I did it straight away and as I am publishing this piece... NO REPLY! UPDATE: 18 May 2026 @ 11.57AM We have another partner who may be able to assist, XYX school this service will be able to provide you with support you may need. Would you like to be referred there?” They haven’t provided any link but expect me to agree to be referred while they have closed my application. Upon checking that school, I can learn how to make a CV; revise GCSE; do football; not hearing from my local MIND and that school, I contacted MIND HQ who wrote on 21 May 2026we do not have access to their referral processes or specific service details. For this reason, we would recommend contacting the relevant Local Mind service directly]

Before sharing the other links [They did provide a long list of therapy available in Hackney which my former GP in Springhill Practice in Hackney failed to do so: I was left to believe there was no mental health services in my former borough], I do need to make you aware that some services may require you to share a telephone number with them as well as any kind of accommodation you may have. If you are with xxx as a GP, please share that too.

To: XXX Fri 1 May at 11:04

I can't share a phone number: I am deaf; I have no phone; I am not with xxx. [On 28 April 2026, I went to xxx that is not an independent organisation; Hackney Council funds it; xxx can’t help me because of this. I wrote to Ben and Cabinet for homelessness: “... J Samuels contacted Homeless Prevention Officer who replied to her; he is not aware of my 49 pages medical history.” I reminded them that on 23 April 2026, Cabinet for homelessness promised to pass on my 49 pages medical history.]

I am still waiting for other online applications I filled... Due to feeling let down and not at the top of my form, I went to GP specialised in homelessness. My first session with him was 10 April 2026; he treated me decently, discussed what was wrong with my body. 8 May 2026: he explained that my slipped disc was actually called a disc bulge and showed me pictures online; told me Yoga, Pilates, martial arts would help. [Homeless people are so rich for private or group lessons!] Thinking he might be opened minded to alternative therapies, I asked him if the eagle position would strengthen my back legs as he seemed to say it was important. He knows nothing about yoga. I asked him if it was normal for a GP to describe me as psychotic? I gave him the date my GP conversed with a psychiatrist [I was unaware my previous GP had a conversation with that woman in September 2024]


He read the medical report from my GP, then accessed letter from psychiatrist; told me there was nothing to worry because the letter does not say I am psychotic; told me I declined seeing Shoham. I said Caroline Woodley (then Mayor of Hackney) booked that appointment with her without my consent! [as a Hackney resident, GP knows Woodley; as a Jeremy Corbyn supporter, he  might know her personally]. Out of the blue, he asked if I heard voices... I said I was not schizophrenic but I was fed up with GPs implying I was or calling me psychotic or having delusions of... I faked searching for the word “persecution”, so he ‘helped’ with “paranoia”. I didn’t deny symptoms of paranoia as he wrote!


If he had asked whether I was paranoid I would have replied that women or people who suffered traumas would use paranoia as a mean of defence / protection! I asked him if he could make a referral for a face to face therapy. He replied I had to sort my social / homeless issue before I could get to therapy sessions because it’s normal for homeless people to be anxious and feeling low. I said that I had a long history of anxiety, depression etc. He repeated he was not going to get me into therapy; I had to sort myself out. He wrote I told him I was turned down to talking therapies because of “history of psychosis”: That is absolute bollox! Here is a perfect dominant white cis-straight man in position of power telling a woman he does what he wants with her/me!

Fun Fact: he raises funds to help homeless men into therapy while setting up a programme to increase their life expectancy by nearly 10 years! Apart from an egotistical endeavour on the GP’s part, why would a homeless person want to stretch their agony for another 10 years? Surviving for what? One is truly led to think that, in London, the best choice is the one that entailed the greatest amount of suffering. The homeless must die, but at a slow burning pace, in agony!

Why is my agony acceptable? How many women fall into GPs traps hoping for help? Some high rank NHS peeps really behave like they wear a uniform!

After insisting on getting a therapist, I left his office because he controls my life! My last chance to get help faded!

Checking my emails, I freaked out as Homeless Prevention Officer (featured in Homelessness: Hackney Council’s continued abuse from 25 February 2026 to 8 May 2026) got in touch with me - at the very moment GP told me I needed to sort out my social/ homeless situation - after two months of silence, offering a hostel as death camp for lepers... I freaked because it echoed a similar scenario that happened to me in Spring 2022. Am I legitimately paranoid? The first court case hearing was due March 2022; landlord and flat agent cancelled it after my solicitor showed evidence I had a strong case. Eventually, they decided to still go for it, so a new date was set up late March 2022 for 3 May 2022 at 15.30! On 2 April 2022, my aggressor’s best friend (both former journalists and colleagues at Les Inrocks) twitted “Bring on the beautiful month of May” featuring the surname of flat agent! Returning home after the court hearing in May - when Judge told off landlord and flat agent and said there would be a new date as it was unacceptable to let me live in sordid conditions – I had two emails: one from Les Inrocks, the magazine where I was sexually harassed in 1991-1992; one from Talking Therapy in Shoreditch Tue, 3 May 2022 at 15:39Dear Sybille Castelain, After discussion with my supervisor, we believe that an assessment with a psychiatrist would be beneficial to see what support would be best to help you with the difficulties you are facing. Are you happy for me to make this referral for you to be seen by a psychiatrist? Please reply to this email, even though the message underneath says not to reply. I will keep an eye out for your response. Kind regards B Rees CBT Therapist Talk ChangesRees is the guy who assessed me after being referred by my GP: he implied I was schizophrenic and psychotic; he asked me if I wanted to kill my aggressors. When challenged about questioning women willing to kill their aggressors, he assured me that many women admitted wanting to kill their aggressors... Anyway, further in the conversation, he was trying to section me!

If I don’t accept to live in a dodgy hostel that does not provide beddings and cooking materials, I won’t get a therapist! Men deciding on women’s fate because it gives them a hard-on!

Fun fact: GP in homeless centre told me there was nothing to worry about as Natalie Shoham did not write I was psychotic... Shoham did marathons in Brighton and Paris where the daughter of my aggressor’s best friend did marathon. I moved to London late 1992, JD Beauvallet (aggressor’s best friend) left Paris for Brighton mid 90’s! Why did Caroline Woodley book me with Shoham without my consent? Why did my former GP Lindsey Angel wrote 13 September 2024 to Shoham about me “possibly psychotic two years ago... she has engaged with max fax”? 

Out of a dozen GP practices in Hackney, former Mayor Woodley chose to have a ball at my former SpringHill Practice! A practice that self crown themselves for championing compassion and empowerment! More Fun Fact: in 2019, days after my birthday, ex colleague at Les Inrocks - a very good friend of my aggressor – twitted I was a psychopath as well as suffering from delusions of persecutions. From 2019 until 2021, my aggressors set five Twitter accounts defaming me and calling me psychotic, mentally deranged etc including one exploiting my image into an alcoholic lying in the street


8 February 2024, nine years after revealing sexual harassment at the magazine (which I silenced for 23 years), French TV journalist Céline Kallmann implies in her Tweet/X Emmanuel Tellier made an indecent proposal while she was on work experience duty, aged 20! Tellier was her mentor, aged 35, just arrived at Telerama from Les Inrocks (Nova).

What’s their advantage to label me as psychotic? On 31 July 2024, I wrote to Woodley, in CC to journalists, matter of facts about my situation, highly criticising how her friend, my then Labour ward CLLR, Margaret Gordon misled me... so talking facts got to cancel me:

(weeks later, Jennifer Wynter emailed me saying she investigated on herself

and found out she did an excellent job... then left Hackney Council for Tower Hamlet!)

UPDATE – Application filled 1 May 2026; counselling@centreforbetterhealth.org.uk replied 22 May 2026 at 09:13: “We are writing to let you know that your application for counselling with the Centre for Better Health has been processed and is now with our counselling team for review... If we feel the service is suitable, we will try and allocate you to a counsellor... While you are waiting for counselling, you may find it useful to speak to your GP... at 9.28: Having reviewed your application, we do not feel we are best placed to meet your needs... and most of our therapists are in training. We encourage you to speak to your GP to access mental health support.

IN-HOUSE CAB AT GP –

LABOUR Cabinet Member for Homelessness Prevention,

Housing needs and Rough Sleeping in Hackney

 

Upon discovering my full medical history on 22 April 2026, I emailed Mercy (as featured in first HEALTH paragraph) in CC to CAB man, to let her know about my medical history. I had never dealt with her, yet she blocked me. I then emailed Ben (Member Casework Manager, Member of the CE Directorate Equalities Board, Mayor, Cabinet & Civic Support and Member Casework, Chief Executive's Directorate) and Green Party CLLR as well as LABOUR Cabinet Member for Homelessness Prevention, Housing needs and Rough Sleeping in Hackney. Within minutes Labour cabinet for homelessness prevention replied ensuring this is followed up by the service area.

Two days later, as I was still managing my own case, CAB lad decided to step in right onto my face, asking Hackney Council a late review with my new full medical history, omitting to send my link on my view on NHS in Hackney! [Why is my voice on my health less important than the fake reports GPs produce? Studying for seven years or more does not entitle anybody to be superiors. They have knowledge but as a journalist, I have knowledge of reporting which they prove to be incapable of while distorting facts!] I emailed him a detailed note on our two meetings:

I met you on 8 April 2026:

You challenged me regarding incentive, defending Hackney Council wanting my win money over court case I won against landlord and flat agent – money I should put forward to participate to incentive…

You called Hackney Council Housing Service challenging them over their decision to let me in the street despite being partially deaf and having suffered stress over the years, depression etc. I believe you spoke to Mercy: you said I needed help because I didn’t understand anything; you didn’t seem happy to what she said to you – I couldn’t hear her despite speakers being on!

Following your conversation with her, I asked you to stop saying I didn’t understand things as if I was heavily stupid! I told you I couldn’t cope!

After leaving you, I sent you emails with attachments at your request showing evidence my deafness was challenged by Homeless Prevention Officer – who wanted to meet via phone only; he said he could help with accommodation only if I answered the phone; he contacted my GP after I sent him a ‘full’ medical history (eight pages). [His team made a decision on my situation based on EIGHT PAGES that go as far as 1989 and nobody lifted an eyebrow that in over 30 years of me seeing GPs, only eight pages were available! I did ask SpringHill Practice to give my full medical history in February 2026: I waited one hour… Weeks later I realized my GP Lindsey Angel failed to include our three meetings in Spring 2022 regarding me being depressed: she referred to her psychiatrist friend in Vivienne Cohen House; sent me to Talk Changes; wrote to a back specialist; referred to a feminist organization – all of this is detailed in my article TALKING TO DOCS; I have given journalists names, letters, emails as further evidence]

Still on 8 April 2026, I sent you another email with three attachments and evidence of being abused by Hackney Council hoping to have a reaction from you! Another one highlighting their abuse!

13 April, I emailed you asking if Hackney Council came back to you; on 15 April you said they didn’t.

22 April 2026, we met again: you hadn’t heard from Hackney Council. Neither had I… You read my medical history where you “found out” I was Bi-polar… Not only did it freak me out you had access to my medical history, but you were reading my kidney tests and I realised my full medical history was 49 pages long! You called Hackney Council, spoke to a woman and you forced me to speak to her as you decided my hearing was fine… Unable to hear her, she asked you my DOB and my NIN, then she hung up; you called again and spoke to Mercy. You suggested I have a late review; I asked you to wait as I needed time to review my 49 medical history pages.

Following our meeting, I asked to be sent my full medical history and sent an email to Mercy in CC to other people including you. Mercy blocked me!

24 April 2026, you sent me an email that was totally out of order: you didn’t send me a draft; you didn’t ask my consent / permission; you treated me like I was stupid; you had no mention on how women get abused as homeless!

I was in such distress, I couldn’t sleep; I spent a horrible weekend and you can’t see the problem! You didn’t even apologise as it looks like women have to be submissive and accept cheap solutions. Our contract doesn’t allow men to speak in my name without consent; rape me whenever they want to; undermine me etc!

For years, I have written articles on homelessness. Only recently, I am realizing that Councils organize homelessness and blame people for being drunk, drug addict, being bipolar, and schizophrenic, psychotic…

If your Centre for homeless people is working hard to help us, it might be time to attack the root of the problem: Councils saving money on vulnerable people!

Hackney Council does not have to know where I live, where I stay: this is no crucial information and I’m asking you to stop being complicit to them!

I haven’t heard from him since! Many would say I’m too sensitive! No, you guys are pure gaslight and women are not robots ready to suck your dicks!

FORMER STALKER BACK ON TRAIL

After sending my full medical history to Hackney Council etc on 22 April 2026, Jeremie Souteyrat lookalike reappeared right next to where I was staying, one hour and half from Hackney, on 23 April 2026 at 8.15 AM!

I mentioned him at the bottom of my Witch Hunt piece:

 From Late November 2024 to mid February 2025, every Saturdays, a Jeremie Souteyrat twin looking sat opposite me in library! UPDATE: 16 MARCH 2025. at 2pm, I am sitting in Stamford Hill Library (1km away from my usual library), pretty empty. the Jeremie Souteyrat twin like was to sit in the empty space when he saw me and sat right behind me, so I sat on the other side of my table and I'm facing him 'reading' "An Introduction to Psychodynamic Counselling (Basic Texts in Counselling and Psychotherapy)" by Laurence Spurling... but who is Laurence Spurling? He is a Consultant Adult Psychotherapist at East London NHS Foundation Trust where my GP and Mayor of Hackney Caroline Woodley tried to have me sectioned. REMINDER: ‘Abhorrent, unethical, harmful’: East London NHS Foundation Trust diagnoses ‘personality disorder’ in under-18s – it’s a rat laboratory for over 18s! / it' s now 3.20pm, still 16 March 2025: a woman I've never seen before sat near me at my library on 15 march 2025; she has just entered Stamford Hill Library, said hi to that Jeremie Souteyrat twin bro like... I left the library at 4.15pm - it closes at 5pm. I said to myself: if he leaves in the next 15 mns, then he defo stalks / intimidates me! If he leaves at 5Pm, I will still believe he stalks / intimidates me but he will be granted the benefice of the doubt... So I sat outside the library, hidden. At 4.25pm, he got out and while he was setting out the bike, his coat and helmet, he saw me. I indulged and took pictures. He was furious, but I’m magical... 23 March 2025, Jeremie Souteyrat twin bro lookelike just entered the Stamford Hill library at 3.10pm. He didn't see me, sat at a table, saw me and sat in front of me. He is 'reading' a book on psychosis: https://www.amazon.co.uk/s?i=stripbooks&rh=p_27%3AMichael%2BSelzer&s=relevancerank&text=Michael+Selzer&ref=dp_byline_sr_book_2”... 29 Marsh 2025: I went to Stamford Hill Library instead of going to my local. I went home at 2PM. At 2.45 (or 3.45)PM, he walked below my [Clapton flat] window; five minutes later he was again below my window.


IN SEARCH OF HOUSING FROM CONTACTS I FOUND HERE AND THERE:

accomodation

mail@XXXhousing.co.uk          Mon 2 Mar at 12:47

Good afternoon, I'm looking for accomodation. How can you help please? NO REPLY

 

housing

enquiries@XXXuk.org   Mon 2 Mar at 13:14

Hi, Hackney Council has provided your contact. Could you help urgently find me a place please? NO REPLY

 

Re: Account Created

support@xxxhousingsolutions.co.uk    Mon 2 Mar at 13:27

Hi, I've just created an account but I don't seem to be able to go forward. As I'm not a Britich citizen, here is my share code: SHARE CODE: S R X xxx This code is valid until 26 May 2026 NO REPLY

 

XXXhouseinfo@XXX.org    Mon 2 Mar at 18:36

Hi, I got your contact through someone who was in touch with you. The links dont work. I am homeless. How can you helpplease? NO REPLY

 

[Housing Association through a friend] Contacts Form - new submission

Admin@xxxhousingcoop.org Sun 8 Mar at 08:40

Hi xxx, Thank you. Please add me to your mailing list, I'd be very grateful. Have a good weekend I HAVE TO WAIT

 

homeless

To: Diane Abbott MP [Member of Parliament for Hackney North and Stoke Newington since 1987]

Tue 10 Mar at 08:07

On 1 March 2024, six months after winning my court case against landlord and flat agent (after a two year battle), I sat in my solicitor office discussing landlord court fees. About the question of Hackney residents losing their home, they told me to see the issue of homelessness with my MP. I have written to you numerous times regarding my situation echoing hundred of other Hackney residents. On 23 February 2026 I was made homeless. I can't get a temporary accomodation. I'm supposed to look for a place outside London... Why is all this acceptable to you? NO REPLY

 

customerxxx@womenxxx.co.uk Tue 10 Mar at 17:17

I'm writing from xx where I'm staying after losing my flat. I'm sure many women contact you and I am one of them: If you happen to have a free space, I'd be very gratefull. THEY REPLIED WITHIN A FEW DAYS

 

homeless

refugeXXX@XXXwomenXXX.org   Fri 10 Apr at 17:54

MXXX told me about you as a friend of her works or worked for you. I am homeless, I Wonder if you can help? REPLY: Mon 13 Apr at 14:16 Thanks, are you single or mum? we currently no capacity for single space.

deafness – homeless

To: ola.xxxxxxxx@xxxxxxxxhackney.org (Disability Rights Advocate​) emily-xxx.xxxxxx@xxxxxxhackney.org paula.xxxxx@xxxxxxhackney.org (Disability Rights Advocate​) felicia.xxx@xxxxxxhackney.org (Hate Crime Advocate​) Wed 15 Apr at 19:24

Hello,

I have been recently evicted from my private rented flat in Hackney for the wrong reason... or as I put it: it's been organised / orchestrated by the council and its Mayor. Mayor has blamed me a few times via email for being HOH as well as written I was mentally disturbed. When I was first taken to court by landlord and flat agent in 2021, it was impossible to get help from Hackney Community Law Centre or Deaf Plus. Today, it is still impoossible:

OPTION 1 - Housing *currently suspended until further notice*

OPTION 3 - Welfare Benefits *currently suspended until further notice*

NOTICE - THE HOUSING AND WELFARE BENEFITS LINE IS CURRENTLY SUSPENDED DUE TO FULL CAPACITY.

On my 6 weeks old journey into homelessness, I have met a freaky number of women - some are from Hackney - in my situation. I have no social worker and the lad - homeless prevention officer - in charge of my situation is not responded to my emails and has written to me  late February 2026 that he had flats but I had to answer the phone as well as invited me to view luxury flats in Mayfair...

I have no money, no stable place: How could you help me?

From: emily-xxx.palmer@xxxxxxinhackney.org Thu 16 Apr at 19:10

... please allow up to 14 days to receive a response. Please note myself and Cxxxxx in Hackney are unable to provide support to those experiencing immediate threat of homelessness. If you or someone you are supporting, are at risk of immediate homelessness or require urgent housing advice, you can contact one or more of the of the following organisations.

Shelter Emergency Helpline Monday to Friday from 8am – 6pm    Phone number: 0808 xxxxxxx An interpreter is available for this service.

The XXX Walk-In Centre (for Hackney residents)

Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday 9am-5pm

Phone number: 0208 5xxxxxxx

Drop in service (at the above times):

XX xxxxx Road

LondonEX XXX

Hackney Council - Homeless Prevention and Advice (for Hackney residents who have a disability)

Monday 9am to 5pm, Tuesday 9am to 5pm, Wednesday 9am to 4pm, Thursday 9am to 5pm, Friday 9am to 5pm - 020 8356 2929

Alternatively, if it is after 5pm and it’s an Emergency  please contact - 020 8356 XXXX

Emily-XXX Palmer

Community Care & Housing Advisor

XXXXXX IN HACKNEY - disability advocacy and independent living services 

UPDATE: Wed 3 Jun at 15:12 Housing Advise

From: clare.xxxxxxx@xxxxxxhackney.org

I am the Housing and Welfare Benefit Advisor at XXXXXX in Hackney. I was passed your details from my colleagues. I would like to understand your situation better to see how I can best advise you. My working days are Wednesdays and Thursdays so I can only respond to emails then. When and how would be the best way to communicate further with you regarding this?

Clare XXXXXXX  

Advocate and Housing Advisor 

XXXXXX IN HACKNEY - disability advocacy and independent living services

partially deaf / homelessness

To: info@shelter.org.uk   Tue 28 Apr at 06:49

I can not call due to be partially deaf and not owning a phone.

 The general question is: Can you help me about abuse I suffer from Hackney Council reagarding my disability and housing? My email contains some detailed information. THEY REPLY WITH LINKS INVOLVING TOO MUCH LITTERATURE THAT MY BRAIN CAN’T DIGEST + PHONE NUMBERSAppericate you say this isnt a option for you, but thought I would include this too in case someone is able to call with you present - If you are homeless, threatened with homelessness or in an urgent situation you can call our free emergency helpline on 0808 800 4444. The helpline is open Monday – Friday, 8am to 5pm. The helpline is free to call from mobiles and landlines.

As you can appreciate in these current times, demand for our services is particularly high. Therefore, it may take several attempts to get through to an adviser. If you do have an urgent issue where you need to speak to someone, please do keep trying as often as you can.

Civil Legal Advice also offer specialist advice and support with housing problems if you qualify for legal aid. Their expert advisers are available Mon - Fri 9am - 8pm and Saturday mornings, 9am - 12.30pm. You can call them on 0345 345 4345 and ask if they will call you back. Alternatively, if you text ‘legalaid’ and your name to 80010 they will call you back for free.

I emailed CRISIS but DID NOT REPLY

 

LAW:

Upon checking Hackney Community Law Centre:

OPTION 1 - Housing *currently suspended until further notice*

OPTION 3 - Welfare Benefits *currently suspended until further notice*

 NOTICE - THE HOUSING AND WELFARE BENEFITS LINE IS CURRENTLY SUSPENDED DUE TO FULL CAPACITY.

 

admin@legaladvicexxx   Mon 9 Mar at 17:19

Good afternoon, Is it possible to pop in to your centre or shall I make an appointmeent prior to visiting?

Email is my only way of communicating NO REPLY

 

My solicitors from court case I won against landlord in September 2023

James H Cc: Olukemi A Tue 10 Mar at 07:49

Dear James, On 5 March 2024, you sent me a PDF explaining how things should happen. Despite not knowing how long it would take to recover money landlord owed you, you estimated a maximum length of nine months. On 23 February 2026, I've been evicted; Managing to get my belongings in a storage on 5 March 2026, landlord said you couldn't go to his assets or auction xxx Riverside Close, London E5 9ST. He even implied he had no intention to pay his court fees. I am homeless. The prospect of recovering my £1700 from Legal Aid is non existent. Why haven't you enforced anything in the past two years? NO REPLY

 

deafness, homelessness

To: a law service specialised in disabilities Wed 15 Apr at 19:18

I have been recently evicted from my private rented flat in Hackney for the wrong reason... or as I put it: it's been organised / orchestrated by the council and its [Labour] Mayor [Caroline Woodley]. Mayor has blamed me a few times via email for being HOH as well as written I was mentally disturbed. When I was first taken to court by landlord and flat agent in 2021, it was impossible to get help from Hackney Community Law Centre or Deaf Plus. [I sent attachments from Homeless Prevention Officer and explained further how he mistreated me regarding my disability and mental health issues] THEY REPLIED: Mon 27 Apr at 15:03 I note in the attached correspondence that your local housing authority have not refused help and you have a right to a review of their decision not to house you. If you are unhappy with this decision you should tell them why in writing within 21 calendar days from the date of your letter. I replied: Mon 27 Apr at 15:06 it is well passed the 21 days. NO FURTHER REPLY!

 

deafness - homeless

To: disability law centre in Hackney Wed 15 Apr at 19:24

I have been recently evicted from my private rented flat in Hackney for the wrong reason... or as I put it: it's been organised / orchestrated by the council and its Mayor.

Mayor has blamed me a few times via email for being HOH as well as written I was mentally disturbed.

When I was first taken to court by landlord and flat agent in 2021, it was impossible to get help from Hackney Community Law Centre or Deaf Plus and so on... NO REPLY

 

deafness, homelessness

To: legalhelp@xxx.com    Mon 27 Apr at 15:18

As a partially deaf person, how can I access your service? NO REPLY

 

Re: deafness/homelessness

To: xxx@xxx.org.uk  Tue 28 Apr at 14:00

Good afternoon XXX, I am searching for a legal aid solicitor. I am currently based in XXX. Could you help? NO REPLY

 

Between April and May 2026, I filled online applications for Legal Aid, most of them did not reply, this one in Hackney did two weeks later:

Your Query to XXX 285625836

From: newclient@xxx.com Sat 9 May at 08:26

Thank you for approaching us requesting assistance with your ‘Housing’ matter.

We note that your query has been pending for more than one weeks. Please note that our team has considered your enquiry and we write to confirm that we do not have the capacity to take on your case.

To seek alternative representation, please refer to the Law Society website: https://solicitors.lawsociety.org.uk

WOMEN

21 March 2022 Nazanin Zaghari-Ratcliffe twitted "I don't agree with Richard on thanking the Foreign Secretary, because I have seen 5 Foreign Secretaries over the course of the 6 years.. I was told many times that we're going to get you home, but that never happened.. I'm not going to even trust you"

Women are perpetually prisoners of a system organised by men where women stepping in men’s positions enforce the original stigma with grace!

In my peripatetic journey across London streets I have met women victims of homelessness, yet not rough sleepers. They wander around in search of free food / free hot meals. Often, they have no cooking facilities; accept what’s available favouring rapid health deterioration. Non menopaused women might find places that offer sanitary products; those suffering from endometriosis suffer in silence and keep walking! Apart from being victims of a brutal system that forces them to undress their bank statements as well as unveiling their private medical records, they are all victims of various sex related traumas! A Black beautiful 20 years old woman, Hackney born, suffered a life of abuse from her mother; she escaped once adult to her uncle who sexually abused her; she escaped recently, got her saving for a week in a hostel and is homeless until 7 June 2026 when she flies to France to a new family that she doesn’t know: the south of France town that pays for her trip is renowned for its international pimping! Why doesn’t she report her mother? Because she would be sacked from a well-paid council job and her two young siblings will go to foster families where abuse is rampant... Childless or childfree women who escape domestic violence can’t afford to stay too long away from their home; those who decide to go to the police and are lucky enough to be believed can stay home while their partners are forced out. How many violent men in situation of homelessness have I met complain of being victims of domestic violence... how many of them wander London streets being violent to women victims of homelessness due to being forced out of their comfort zone? How many women are raped in the streets or while visiting flats, forced to prostitution? The unique reason to display figures for actors who want to tackle homelessness is to create fear and disgust to the general public. Figures that create high paid jobs that allow said actors to indulge in fancy restaurants, luxury life! No homeless people... no luxury life! Once rough sleepers, the system organise something that is so inhuman that women can only become invisible. Not that they are visible when homeless but the system force them to hide if they want to avoid multiple sexual assaults in one night! Visiting centres that welcome rough sleepers, white men are visible. Like women, people with disabilities, from LGBTQA+ community or from minorities’ background are unseen! Centres that care for women are highly discriminative: they have to prove they sleep rough at specific spots; have children in their care. Some homeless centres are funded by a council that got them homeless and can not help for obvious reasons! Out of the hundreds of women victims of homelessness I have met, only one has a slight alcohol issue. Once rough sleeping, the visible ones, general stigmatisation can go wild due to them at times being under drug or alcohol influence in open space. However, in journalistic articles, always one can read “... homeless, with complex mental and physical health needs, and sometimes drug and alcohol dependency” hoping Green Party Zoe Garbett, Mayor of Hackney since May 2026 will definitely perform her words “The council and key partners must act now to address the crisis in supported accommodation so that people get the help that they need and are treated with dignity". Homelessness has a cost that hopefully spokespersons of that social epidemic can calculate: the numbers of times police has to intervene to ‘arrest’ a victim of homelessness; the number of times a victim of homelessness ends up in A&E; the number of people being displaced to another borough; the justice system cost... is the homelessness cost different from VAWG?

 ENVIRONMENT / CLIMATE CHANGE

My lack of participation to environment issues has drastically being challenged since being homeless and this has a societal cost! i.e: relying on Foodbank products, I can wash my clothes (by hands) with environmental unfriendly laundry liquid. Those in poverty state can go home with a range of cleaning products, for free, that deteriorates our planet! Am I focused on getting the right bins for whatever I have to throw away? Place your bet. Watching recently A Life on Our Planet, David Attenborough (happy 100) said that human beings are responsible for destroying nature and all beings including animals. However well made the documentary is, I can’t disagree more with his witness statement: for centuries, white western men have had command on all living structures; I and my worldwide sisters are not part of that destruction – rather, we are part on a default mode, imposed on us! Also watched recently – I can indulge on ‘cheap’ films matinées to get my brain going - Orban Wallace’s Our Land questions who has the right to roam on English countryside when most of its lands is owned by ultra rich white men! Their lands, by tradition and obsolete law systems, prevent the general public from observing nature in its bare privately protected beauty. But it also triggers another issue to me: my private life / invasion of privacy (bank account – medical record) is available, discussed and mis-judged; as a journalist I am not allowed to report or photograph private lands unless I ask permission! But permissions do get refused in London streets when canyonised universe of visible and not-so-visible boundaries, some campaigners see a microcosm of the contemporary city as a whole: one of soaring inequality, in which the line between public and private is becoming dangerously blurred and so are victims of homelessness, who then become delinquent!

II) BECOMING (published 27 May 2026 with ongoing updates)

In 2020 I wrote about Auvergne-Sancy as Arinna because I didn’t want my aggressors to see I was published in The Guardian (the travel team had my real name); 3 February, I liked the Guardian Tweet when LIKES were visible; within days JD Beauvallet made a series of writing about the French region; 8 April 2020 to his accomplice Laura Snapes at GuardianI can provide the brandy... ” establishing an ongoing friendship...


... series continued until June 2020; reporting for his new journalistic adventure, my aggressor went to Auvergne! This type of online and physical stalking was (still is?) endless multiplied by an ever growing numbers of (mainly) men which GPs label me as psychotic despite reporting on this very blog on and on with evidence!

If taken seriously, I wouldn’t have become homeless, but my fate suits the French most and foremost!

FRENCH DELICACY DELIQUENCY 

4 January 2022 – at my eviction daybreak, I twitted about trying to get in touch with French Green Party Remi Vaseille who displayed a weird behaviour towards me (a lad I had never heard of); 5 January 2022 I tagged his colleague Charlotte Minvielle (a gal I never heard of) as she went to a cinema in Hackney, my borough, complaining that nobody at the French Green Party tried to check him out... He suddenly started to twit endlessly his support to #MeToo women, then ‘replied’ to me using Facebook in April 2022

 

He then blocked me!

In June 2022, I tagged again / replied to actors of the French Green Party including Sandrine Rousseau (who seems to have deleted some of her twits): https://x.com/RaphaelleRL/status/1533696822086090753; https://x.com/Sybillebbldnrbt/status/1533886432422551556; https://x.com/Sybillebbldnrbt/status/1534128624277889024; calling Charlotte Minvielle a greed for power! Some random person from their party advised me to report his sexual violence... I never accused Remi Vaseille of sexual assault towards me but I wrote he was stalking me online; I also wrote I had ton of💩 in my life... French Green Party should worry about their representative in London and investigate on their weird behaviours! REMINDER / FUN FACT: weeks before #MeToo online, I was in touch with Sandrine Rousseau via email; she knew I was a victim of sexual harassment at Les Inrocks; she stopped any contact with me as she privileged an interview in... Les Inrocks! Four years after #MeToo I wrote a paper calling French feminists/female journalists/female politicians the Mothers Teresa of MeToo as they cared about sexual violence but never have never investigated / reported on #MeToo in French journalism because they needed to be published in magazines! Back in June 2022, Charlotte Minvielle reached out on my DM being totally manipulative! She then blocked me from her account and @EELVUK

Minvielle, representing the French Green Party in London and Northern Europe for French people outside of France, was interviewed (ahead of French vote) – from 30min - by Eric Albert (former London based correspondent for Le Monde) and Bénédicte Paviot (London based correspondent for France 24). Claiming to work as a Human Rights activist, she displayed a pathetic way to defend French people abroad: she couldn’t answer straight forward questions; has an opinion on homeless people (from 1h15); talks solidarity, dignity, dialogue, communication, being together... collaboration... being close to those in precarious situations... [UPDATE: 31 May 2026, Le Monde published about the discrete elections consulaires abroad]

In Autumn 2024, Minvielle organised an event in London with French Green Party misogynist and Amy Winehouse hater (10 March 2017, I extensively wrote on that political imposter and opportunist); 24 March 2025, she poses with Remi Vaseille, Zack Polanski (Leader of the Green Party of England and Wales) and Sandrine Rousseau (Assemblee Deputee representing the French Green Party); 10 May 2025, Minvielle with Garbett and Polanski; 11 January 2026, Minvielle invites to vote Garbett as next Hackney Mayor; 11 April, Minvielle supporting Garbett; 14 April 2026, Minvielle, Marine, Tondelier (French Secretary for French Green Party) meet the UK Green Party; 15 April, Minvielle, Tondelier meet Rachel Millward (Deputy Leader of the UK Green Party) – while JDBeauvallet admires Tondelier; 25 April, Minvielle to AMANDINE ALEXANDREGo Amandine 💚”; 30 April, Minvielle arranged an article about Zack Polanski for France Inter Ce reportage a été réalisé lors de la venue du leader du Zack Polanski dans mon quartier de Hackney”;

I lived in Hackney (2013 to 2026) and I never met Minvielle, yet she promotes London based French female journalists when writing on culture! My articles, since 2013, are all about culture, art, #MeToo...

But who is AMANDINE ALEXANDRE? A ‘journalist’ (turned UK Green Party CLLR) who started to plagiarise me on Elephant and Castle for Mediapart while writing on (my) poverty but in Manchester... praised by fellow French journalists meeting at French Embassy! A ‘journalist’ who wrote for fascist Valeurs Actuelles - De Londres, Amandine Alexandre - with great ‘integrity’! A ‘journalist’ who regularly praises Jeremie Souteyrat - who helped himself with my photos especially his pix on Elephant and Castle; stalked me at V&A who took my name down from their press list while securing a deal with him.

SANDRINE ROUSSEAU: On Tuesday 24 June 2025 at 12:08:05 BST about French "femmes tondues" to me “... Seriez vous ok pour en discuter ? Je vois que vous êtes journaliste...”; 23 January 2026, she praises French film institution CNC financing films like Spanish language Sirat omitting to mention French music producer Kangding Ray aka David Letellier winning Cannes Jury Prize for Soundtrack in May 2025; Sandrine Rousseau back to London again 19 May 2026! 24 May, Minvielle thanks the British Green Party for their support; their common ground on social justice while Sandrine Rousseau is so involved with #MeTooMedia walking up the Cannes stairs; celebrating the courage of international female actress; celebrating Zack Polanski (she does not go to other countries hooking up with their Green Parties); celebrating the Suffragettes; being head of investigations around sexual violence in cinema, media, music etc. 

I am a #MeToo in media-music-cinema! Rousseau knows I am homeless in London... Rousseau, a pervert narcissist, an opportunist, a silent female politician gathering contacts in my field in order to help out?

Kangding Ray: another deranged virilist who death-threatened me in 2011 talks sorcellery... confusing paganism and Christian Easter! We witches celebrate Ostara at Spring Equinox when Christians celebrate Easter later. This is what stalking is all about: pretending to have an interest in a field that your prey has!

Nassira El Moaddem: a fierce promtoers of my aggressors with an interest in #MeToo caring for women victims of homelessness since now:



Valerie Rey Robert: since being homeless, she opened her door to England writing total nonsense! On International Women Day, she revealed being part of a Rape and Revenge film session featuring Virginie Despentes’s Baise-Moi. 8 October 2025, in A Testosterone Rat Hole, I wrote “There are more films about women killing their aggressors made by men than women actually killing their aggressors IRL! Rape and revenge films from the 70’s onwards seem to have nourished men’s fantasy for decades... I suspect that Virginie Despentes’s Baise-moi or Coralie Fargeat's Revenge exist to give an alternative to a legal system that don’t defend women, a sort of “feel-good” films without the real pleasure that comes with it.Rey Robert chose Abel Ferrara’s Ms 45 to balance (?) Baise-Moi. She praises Ferrara’s film because he shot rape in a narrative that suits hers: “on a parlé, dans le cadre d’une soirée autour du rape and revenge, de L’ange de la vengeance de Ferrara. Il y a sans doute plein d’interprétations à ce film. Celle que je vous propose ici en est une parmi tant d’autres. Ça reste un film à voir car de manière hyper surprenante pour un mec hétéro des années 80 Ferrara arrive à percevoir et filmer le continuum des VSS. C’est vraiment un film très intéressant de ce point de vue là. L’actrice Zoé Lund livre une interprétation tout en retenue très notable aussi. #ferrara” as if being the topic... (approved by Boris Bastide and Judith Godreche). A seamstress that eventually ends up disguised as a nun has more to do with a masculinist’s fantasy about BDSM than a man who pays tribute to feminists’ narrative... Ferrara cares about rape just like Marie NDiaye care about being black or about witches! The film maker’s œuvre has more to do with violence, drug, sex and corruption where rape is used as a convenience rather than a sympathetic symphony! Ageist Rey Robert’s ‘œuvre’ has more to do with CTRL C / V! Her entire crap about Ferrara is courtesy of Les Cahiers Du Cinema welcoming her! Though, she at times deigns to mention female authors like Isabella Stewart Gardner Museum to show off how well read she is, suiting her interest in rape around violence in oeuvres d’art! FUN FACT: publishing the first part of this piece on 15 May 2026, I wrote (as above) “... they will lobotomise her in their wildest fantasies” – Rey Robert is on lobotomy on 23 May 2026! She uses the same tactic as my aggressors in terms of voyeurism and stalking: parroting within days (hours at times) my prose without ever mentioning me! A psychological game that kills. RR is the vulture in Kevin Carter’s The Vulture and the Little Girl. Two died surrounding that Pulitzer Prize for Feature Photography!

Thomas Andrei has almost disappeared since being homeless but he still managed to be in Hackney publishing his clowns’ article for Society days after my new status… a copy-paste from Londonist published late January 2026! He is not giving up on copying pasting my work: Guillaume Gendron praises the CTRL C_P ‘journalist’ for visiting Mark Fisher. I mentioned the Punk writer, music critic, political and cultural theorist twice in 2014 (articles visited 12 times in the past two months!) Who else but creepy Ricardo Yui coming to London late 2025 and… talking Mark Fisher! [UPDATE: Andrei published 29 May 2026 a post mentioning again Mark Fisher; 1 June 2026, he’s asked Zoe Billingham to follow him: Billigham interviewed in The Guardian (9 Feb 2026) about... poverty and community!

Marie Agnes Beau:


SADIQ KHAN, MAYOR OF LONDON

From 2023, I contacted Khan’s team and the Labour Party about how I was treated by Labour CCLRs, Hackney’s mayors, Hackney charity sector, my housing situation etc: instead of being heard, I was vilified! In October 2025, I wrote a piece about my GP’s behaviour and the community sector in Hackney that fails to help its community. Sadiq Khan, 13 February 2026 (10 days before being a victim of homelessness): “Inspiring to meet some of the grantees behind our new network of community spaces across London. Their passion for supporting local people, creating inclusive spaces and strengthening ties across the capital is what makes this initiative so powerful.” Khan wants to restore community centres across the capital as a “powerful force for good” as he announced a £1.8m funding boost to help combat division and social isolation.

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